Prepare for some feels (and maybe some boobage). When X was born almost 11 months ago (already?!), we struggled to breastfeed from the get go. Tongue tie, hypertonic muscles, and more caused me constant, excruciating pain. In my head was an anxiety-filled countdown until it was time for his next feeding. Sometimes, when the pain was too much, I would pump instead (though I never got much). In addition to the stress of feeding him, I had a rough recovery from birth.
I remember feeling like a failure the first time I gave him formula and then crying out of relief because it meant I didn’t have to go through the pain of breastfeeding. I remember pumping constantly throughout the night to keep my supply up. I remember the countless specialists we saw, friends I confided in, and times I broke down in front of Will. I remember the first time that I didn’t want to look at or be close to my own baby.
Thankfully, there exists a vast network of support! My OBGYN helped me have a healthy pregnancy, achieve the natural birth I had desired, and referred me to PT. An ARNP clipped X’s tongue tie and provided countless resources like referrals to PT, OT, and Craniosacral Therapy. Numerous lactation consultants and nurses helped us along the way too. I wasn’t sure I was going to make 3 days breastfeeding and we’re still going strong at 11 months! Thank you ladies- you all hold a very special place in my heart.
These pictures (taken by W) mean so much to me because I never thought they would be possible. I would go on to talk about my mom tribe and him but X would probably be in college before I finished. Needless to say, the support is out there. If you need help, don’t wait! This time is too short and too precious to not be able to enjoy it. Take care of yourself so you can take care of your little ones. Message me if you ever need encouragement- I’m always looking to expand my village. 🙂
This wildflower breastfeeding session was very special to this mama. The handsome little guy in these pictures is her first boy and her last baby. She’ll be weaning him soon and it will be the end of an era, so she wanted to capture these special mama-son moments. Though slightly bittersweet, it’s been amazing to watch this little guy grow and change!
This little boy was the one who got me excited about having my own son. He has a ready smile and a constant mischievous twinkle in those huge, blue eyes of his! As seen below, his special “thing” with his mama is her kissing his hand while he eats. The bond between these two is absolutely beautiful.
Breastfeeding photography. A deeply personal and intimate bonding experience between mother and child captured on film. If you had asked me six months ago whether I thought I would ever photograph breastfeeding mamas, the answer would have been a big, fat NOPE! However, as some of you may know, I struggled massively with my own breastfeeding relationship with baby X. He had a tongue tie and hypertonic neck muscles that prohibited him from being able to properly feed. As a result, I was in constant pain and he was unable to get the nutrition he needed which resulted in many weeks of stress and misery for both of us.
Thankfully, I was not without resources! The women in my life offered me encouragement and told me stories of their own breastfeeding struggles, my husband supported me in my decision to push onward with breastfeeding and woke up with me during each night feeding, and my doctor helped me get connected with the right professionals. After resolving X’s tongue tie and getting him months of PT and Craniosacral Therapy, we now have a wonderful breastfeeding relationship! He’s five months old and we’re still going strong!
Breastfeeding photos have been the most requested type of session that I’ve done. However, due to the deeply personal nature of these photos, I decided that it wouldn’t be right of me to ask other mamas for permission to post some of their pictures, until I had posted my own. W took these photos of me and X on Mother’s Day and all editing was done by me.
Note: If you would like to schedule a baby feeding session (bottle or breast) no photos will ever be shared publicly without your express permission! I am thankful for the women who have entrusted me with capturing these intimate moments and would never betray that trust. Also, while I am grateful to be able to breastfeed my baby I’m also incredibly thankful to live in a time when formula is available! Supplementing allowed me to heal and to feed my baby when I couldn’t. So no matter whether you breastfeed or bottle feed, go you for feeding that baby!